Yesterday marked the 3 year anniversary of the date I met my husband. Wow, has it really been 3 years already? My life was so much different 3 years ago and not in a good way.
As some of you may know, I was previously married. He was awful and so was the marriage itself. There was no love in it and, quite frankly, there never was any love. Period.
I was a nurse and working hard. I didn't enjoy it-it was a great career, but not for me. I felt as if I would wake up and go through the motions just to get home. But home, wasn't good either. So what was the point of my life? I did not know who I was or what I wanted. I was lost, confused, and lonely.
But, one sunny day back on April 15, 2012, I made the choice to go to the beach with a girlfriend from work and I met someone. He was a mutual friend that she had invited to come meet us. I had no idea who he was and I really didn't care.
He arrived at the beach and walked up with a huge smile on his face. He arranged his white beach towel beside mine, said hello to my friend, and then he turned to me and asked "What's your story?"
Nearly on the verge of tears and laughter, I didn't know what my story was. Well, I knew all about the life I was living-I was miserable. But that's baggage that anyone wouldn't want to hear, right? But, since I didn't care, I let it all out. I told him I was unhappy in my life and unleashed everything that was going on. To my amazement, he listened and understood. Amazing how my ex-husband couldn't just sit down and listen to me in the 3 years that we were together, but this guy would? He exchanged his story with me and told me he had gone through a divorce too-he knew exactly where I was coming from.
As the days went on, I didn't think of this guy any more than just a friend. I didn't feel any attraction to him. It was not until my best friend at work, Sam, said "Who's that? He's hot!" after he came down to visit me at work. We both worked at the same hospital, yet had never seen each other ever. I guess at that point, I did realize he was a little good looking! Haha. But, I still had my issues that I was dealing with.
He sent me an email one day at work about happiness. I didn't want to read or listen to it-I actually was avoiding him for a few days because he wanted to tell me how I deserved to be happy and that I had to do what's best for me-yadayadayada... Stuff I KNEW, but I didn't KNOW how to go about it.
As the days went on, I finally mustered up the courage to do what was long awaiting-I told my husband I wanted a divorce. And that was that. I never felt such a relied in my life. Soon after, I developed feelings for this new guy.
Fastforward to today-we are happily married with the sweetest little boy ever. All because I chose happiness.
Why is it that we tend to run from what we KNOW we need?
Why is it that we tend to choose misery and pain instead of love and happiness?
There comes a time in life when you have got to put your foot down and give yourself what you deserve. Because, if you won't, then who will?
As far as my nursing career goes, I quit. My husband allowed me to quit while I was pregnant. He allowed me to pursue what was then a hobby and I turned that hobby into an official money making business. I make more today as a blogger than I ever did as a nurse! And I am happier with my career because I followed my desire! Funny how that works..
Give yourself what you deserve. Don't waste another day.